I don't know why I feel so sad now . I have never been a story about this on anyone . Just me and God only knows . I have no time to 'reka-reka' this stories , but this is reality . My tears suddenly fell to the cheek . While I was online up , I go to her page . I don't know why my heart suddenly felt like want to go to her page . Look at all the pictures he is . I miss him . I longed to watch her , even from a far . I know I will never have it . I remember , the first time I saw her face . I have started choosing her . But , I did not dare to disbelief . Almost every day I can see her face . But now , I already could not see her smile . Astaghfirullah , why I could not hold back my tears to flow . I never like him . Haaa , I confessed my secret admire him . I've been telling my friends . I do not know whether they still remember or not about this . I like him but I never tried to get him . His name was I don't know . Nearly a year more than I keep my feelings to him . On a day that , I got the news he had died . Choked my heart , I didn't have time to be frank with you . I never talk to you even say a few words. Just look at you from a distance only . I'm sorry , I'm sorry because I have not had time to get acquainted closely with you , you're already going to leave me forever . Stupid me -.- You probably wonder , who is he ? Why do I just want to share stories about him ? I don't know why now . Maybe because now I remember him after I opened up him page . I'm not going to even visit during his funeral . I had never visited his grave . I can only pray for the welfare of her only from a far . Excuse me . I don't know why I did not dare to be frank on the crew . I hope so you will be back , and at that time , I will not waste any opportunity to tell you about my feelings . I was sad when I see your friends post on your facebook wall . They say they miss you . I miss you very well . I don't have time for a meeting with you and tell you the truth . The last time I saw you with a little girl . I'm so jealous because you are friendly with the girl . I went home , I wrote in my room wall , I hate you ! But in fact , I really love you . I didn't want to thank my crew already left for good . If I could draw in time , I will come to you , I will put aside my embarrassment and I will tell you , I love you . But all is not going to happen . Everything was too late , Syaffiqah . I have to accept the decree of God . Hopefully you Vis natural grace and quiet in there . Aminnnnnnn ~ ~
*I will still keep your self who . After he died , I just knew his name . But I would not mind telling us here . Let me be the only one who knows . I do not want to offend anyone if I were telling him the name here . OMG , I shed tears while typing here :'(
